2008 was such a great year for us.......starting the year off pregnant with all sorts of baby hopes and dreams......having a not-to-bad-pain-wise labor.......giving birth to a beautiful perfect little girl to join our family......living in a place that allows you to have 3 months off (even if some of it wasn't paid) to spend with your newborn......having such supportive and generous family and friends who took time to come visit us and bring the baby all sorts of gifts.......finding a good daycare fit near where i worked.......getting laid off and being able to spend the last 4 months of the year with casey.......having a husband who breaks the stereotype and really wants to be a part of every part of casey's life......the great gift of my grandparents' health that they got to meet casey and be part of her life......
of course 2008 did have a few blemishes......one of our goldfish, richard, who had been with me since 2000 died.......one of steve's cousins, paul loring, died young......my grandfather had some health set-backs and spent a good part of the year in a rehab facility......one of my good friends is having a lot of trouble getting pregnant.......an accident caused us to rush casey to the hospital and spend a night at childrens' hospital with a possible skull fracture.......my mom lost her job.......
but overall it was a definite year of overwhelming pluses......and 2009 will be another year with casey and hopefully by the end of the year baby #2, so i know it will be a good one too......
i'm looking forward to being in the pregnant club again although i'm a little worried how it'll affect casey......will i be able to do all the things physically that i want to - run around with her, carry her around, etc?......then there's the whole concept of if i'm capable of loving anyone else as much as casey?......ridiculous questions like will i love kid #2 less? will i love casey less when kid #2 comes? and more rational questions like will casey feel hurt/left out when i have to feed/focus on a newborn? will casey's awesome sleeping through the night trend be totally shot to hell when there's a screaming newborn in the house? float around in my head.......i know it's good for casey to have a sibling and having 2 kids is what steve and i want......it's just these little pesky doubts that get me sometimes.......but i have faith that when baby #2 comes along everything will fall into place and will work out......2009 will be a great year........
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