ok so these days everyone and their mother seems to have a blog......so i've decided to throw caution to the wind and join 'em......of course i'm worried that i will have no idea how to do this whole blogging thing......thus needing to admit that while i'm only 28 i am way too old for the technology curve that's upon us......i mean i have an i-pod (albeit a teensy i-shuffle) and i know how to get pictures from my camera to my computer and i am just getting comfy with text messages on my phone, but really that's where it ends for me.....facebook and myspace scare the living hell out of me cuz i have no idea what to do with them......and really wtf is a flix message???.....ok yes i'll admit it i'm old.......
adding to that notion of being old at 28 is the fact that i have a 4-month old......she really might be the best kid ever to walk (er, exist) on the earth......i say that not because i'm biased and i think she can do no wrong......i say it because she really is a good kid - she's slept through the night since she was about 5 weeks old, she's genuinely a happy baby, she loves other people and getting attention, she eats well, and quite honestly she doesn't really get cranky a lot......now the blog is really for her.......so there's a record of things that she can look back on when she's older - not only can she see her own achievements, but how psycho her parents are in general......of course i'm thinking that maybe i should be doing this whole blogging thing with a pen and a notebook because god knows whether this lowly blogspot website will still be around when casey (oh yeah that's my kid's name which before now i've failed to mention) is old enough to laugh at us......it'd just be my luck that the day before she opens this blog the whole internet gets bought out by comcast or tropicana and they decide to ditch all the "old" blogs......
ok enough about my leeriness of blogs......and back to casey......so she's a good kid......and she's really made being a mom super easy......i could never imagine having a daughter......i'm not sure if anyone with a daughter ever does......i guess i didn't yearn to teach a mini-me how to braid hair or play dress up or put on make up......i didn't think i'd ever want to go to a cheerleading competition or a ballet recital.......i wear jeans to church and my only "up-do" involves a hair elastic and hair clip that takes 2 seconds to achieve.......i think pink might be my least favorite color (well next to peach - which in itself is part of the pink family i think)......i never had a barbie doll.......and classical music stresses me out rather than making me want to do a piroutte......but it really has all changed now......well not for me......i'm too old and it's too late to convert me to femininity......but if casey wants to strap on a pair of ballet shoes, er wait i think they're called slippers, or if she wants to grab a pair of pom poms and get thrown in the air, or if she asks santa for a barbie doll for christmas i'm ok with it all......short of her wanting everything in her life to be pink, i am ok with her being a girl......even a girly girl.......and i think i've figured out why.......steve's so different from me.......really he's almost the polar opposite of me.......but yet he's opened up worlds of new things for me that i normally wouldn't have explored - politics, environmentalism, religion, superheroes, hockey, etc......i want casey to do that too......because she isn't a mini-me......she's her own person.......and i can learn from her.......even now in her 4-month old-ness......she's innocent, she doesn't blame people (even when they drop her and cause her to have a skull fracture like i did last week), she's open to meeting new people, she trusts people, she doesn't get too caught up in the hassles of life.......having her is more happiness than any one person deserves.......and i am looking forward to getting to know the person she's going to become.......even if it's a pink dress wearing, barbie doll toting, manicured ballerina......because no matter what she becomes she'll still be my daughter and i'll still love her.......
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Welcome to the blogosphere. (Can you believe I just used that word?) It will be fun to keep up on your stories, esp now that our leisurely days on maternity leave are long gone and we don't get to walk and talk every week... And who knew about this pink aversion ;)
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